While I was going through my scrapbooks a few days ago to find pictures for another post, I ran across something I don't remember receiving. I think it's over 40 years old.
Obviously my Dad gave me a box of candy with his apology, but what in the world was he apologizing for? I most likely pushed him to the edge about something. I most likely was about 15-17 years old. Interesting how there has never been a need for him to apologize again to me once I grew up a little more.
This made me think of a song I still know all the words to. So I googled it and found it was released by Roy Clark in 1969. That sounds about right, because I was 15 that year.
I think I related to this song just because of these 2 lines:
"and every conversation I can now recall
concerns itself with me and nothing else at all."
This video is not very good, but the music is.
Since I liked those two lines, it's like I knew even back then that I was self centered. Thankfully I had parents who were patient and weathered out those years with me. I did remember, even in my very ornery times (hormonal) I knew they had faith in me. They didn't label me. At least not while I was in the room.
I wish someone had explained hormones and how I would not always feel so unsettled. Instead, I just thought I wasn't a very good person. I don't think PMS or pregnancy hormones even begin to compare what a girl goes through as a teenager.
I also found this note from my Dad, written during this same time period:
So maybe I wasn't quite as bad as I thought I was back then.
At least not all the time.