Maybe it's all those Mother's Day cards in the stores right now.
Maybe it's because all 4 of my sons have had big life events happen to them in the past 3 weeks. Makes me want her here all the more.
No, I didn't go to the cemetery. I rarely go there as I know she is not in that body, she's not under the ground. I feel empty there.
When I want to feel my mother's spirit, I read her journals, and talks she has saved that she gave at church years ago. Then it all comes back to me...who she was, what she wanted us to know.
Sorry for the interruption, but here's Mom in 1955 visiting Disneyland with my Dad the year it opened. She told me many times when I was older that she experienced "kid separation depression" since she left my brother (age 3) and me (age 16 months) with her parents. She would tell me later, "It is just not natural for a Mom to be separated from her baby."
I came across a talk she had written in 1966 about being a mother. This little excerpt shows her honesty. She never for one moment pretended to have all the answers.I also found some quotes that she repeats over and over again, in both her talks and her journals. So she obviously feels strongly about them. She obviously wants us to think about them. Here's a few:
"No other success can compensate for failure in the home."
"The most important work I will ever do will be within the walls of my own home."
She wrote that this should be a motto for every Mom:
"Out of small things proceedeth that which is great." She said this describes mothering perfectly.
She wrote that the following things seem unimportant perhaps on an everyday level, but are very important. Here's her list:
She said the above list is evident when kids don't have it.
And she ended this talk with:
"I wish I could say to every mother everywhere,
'Make your mark on the world in the HEARTS of your children.'
You will be eternally blessed if you do."
I know she made a very deep and forever lasting mark on my heart. I know my 7 siblings would agree.
Aren't they beautiful?